Letting off steam

I have not done well with posting lately.  I have been a little skatter-brained and honestly having a bit of a block as to what to right or what direction to take this blog.  I decided at least for now, to go back to my original idea.  Instead of trying to promote and really make post that are more for engaging a large audience, I am writing from the heart, about me, and well life.

The past 2 weeks my husband has been gone.  During that time we had a HUGE snowstorm which I did write all about.  Needless to say, things are more stressful when he is away.  However, this time more so as he is not allowed to communicate with us.  THAT SUCKS!

Besides his deployment, in all the years he has been in the military, I have not really felt like a military wife.  That is until the last year.  Last year he was gone 5 months total out of the year on various training exercises and such mostly preparing for a deployment.  However, thank the Lord, he was accepted into a Warrant Officer job and switched units.  That took him off deployment, but also means another 5 months this year of him being gone to school and training, at different times.  Atleast its in the US and not across the world in the constant danger.

This first school is 5 weeks long.  It’s basically like basic training on steroids from what I can gather.  I am allowed very little communication with him.  They literally have to turn in their phones.  He called me yesterday for the first time in 9 days.  Those 9 days, felt like an eternity.  It doesn’t help that we had a massive snow storm, and the government shut down during that time and I couldn’t talk to him at all.  I didn’t know how it would affect his school or what would happen.

Needless to say the kids and I have been saying lots of prayers for daddy!

I feel so much better after talking to him, however I think my 30 minute conversation just made me miss him more.  It’s amazing how much we take things for granted.  I complain every-time he goes away, but not being able to text or call this time is really tortured for me.  Trying to manage a household, 3 kids, 3 dogs, 3 goats, and a cat by myself is hard work.  He is my steady and not being able to communicate with him is harder than I imagined.

Add to that needing to work 60 hours this week to catch up from not being able to work the last 5 days due to no fault of my own, is going to make for a long week.

Thank You!

I will say that I have an incredible family.  My dad came and took the kids sledding during the snow storm and let me use his Gator ATV for the next two days to pull all the kids around, and thus keep them out of the house.  They also took us all out to dinner on Saturday.  I’m not much for taking the kids INSIDE a restaurant by myself.  I did take them to Chick Fil A but that doesn’t count.

My adopted 2nd parents, Grandma and Papa John to the kids, also have been a huge blessing as they always allow me to just drop in.  I can go in, plop down in a chair, let the kids play and they handle the kids for a few minutes while I sit and actually BREATH uninterrupted for a few minutes.

My sister-in-law has also been my rock over the past 2 weeks.  She has called, texted and made sure to check in on me often.  She picked up Izzy last week, and offered to go to lunch with me so I could have some adult conversation.  We haven’t always had the best relationship, but I am so glad that we are close these days.  I really do not know what I’d do without her.

I don’t know what I’d do if we lived across country or anywhere else.  From the time Jeremy and I got married, we agreed that we wanted to raise our family close to family.  Grandparents don’t live forever and we both feel it is so important for them to have a close and special relationship and to gain as much knowledge as possible from the grandparents, aunts and uncles.  We live on the same driveway as half of them, so makes it easy (HA HA, no seriously).  I wish we could see his family more but we are very close to his brother and sister as well and love every bit of time we get with them.

So tonight, I’m just rambling.  Letting off a bit a steam, and reminding you to not take anything for granted.  Time away from each other makes you appreciate the other that much more.  It also shows you how strong or weak in my case, that you are.

So if you are still reading this, THANK YOU.  Prayers Appreciated!

 

I would love to hear your thoughts and comments.